Your scars and your battle with panic seem to be causing you shame. Don’t let them do that to you, it only gives more power to them. If you ever need to tell someone about cutting please do, or even i asked my parents to get me a therapist because i needed one and didn’t tell them it was because i cut. That helped me so much.
What allowed you to stop cutting in the first place? and What made you start again?
Whatever was helpful for stopping in the first place implement those tools again and try out some new ones. Realize that you have power over your panic and can lessen it before it makes you cut. Do things to comfort yourself that are healthy. Really focus on what is causing you to self-harm now. Go toward it so you can name it and then separate it from yourself. You can do this and you are so lovely and never forget that<3
